Blogging plans

So it seems that I havent been updating this poor blog as much as i have hoped. And this is something that makes me a sad panda. I really want to keep a decent blog but have always gotten sidetracked for some reason or another.
So, in another attempt, I am hoping that I can rejuvenate my blogging by moving my blog away from blogger and going to my own host and working off of wordpress. Currently, I do have access to a host, and I plan on installing and customizing wordpress in the near future. I do, however, have many other things going on in my life that are taking priority right now. But I also plan on buying a domain name for my blog. That is where I would want some help. I dont know what name to get. Should it be something simple like my name? Or should it be something that I have used for just about everything else (lambchop4prez.com???). I really dont know, I would have to research this more.
So other than that, my life is quite busy. Aside from helping with my sister's wedding to work to my side jobs to my band, I haven't had the time to work on this blog like I would want to.
So lets hope that some time in the near future I will organize a smooth transition over to a nice new wordpress installation and a more consistantly updated blog.

Heck yea summer!

In the winter all we have is summer to look forward to,
and in the summer all we're granted is a sunburn face with nothing to do.

So its summer time now. I made it through another year of school. How great is that, I didn't do the best with school, but I at least tried. I have grown quite a bit since the beginning of last year, and a whole lot more since the beginning of college.
So its summer now, now what?
The last few weeks of school, all I heard was how excited everyone was to be able to get out of school, but for me, I hated that thought. I don't like summer at all, and there are a few reasons for that. I could go into them all, but I really don't feel like it. I might feel like going into a few reasons though.
I guess it could all start with the fact that the past few years, my summers have been busy, full of drama, and extremely lonely for me. Most people have themselves a summer fling. I sometimes did, but this summer fling quickly turns into complete and utter rejection for me.
I now have a girlfriend, and I don't think she will be leaving me any time soon. This is why I think this. Most of my "flings" or whatever you would call them, they usually fall apart for one of two reasons. First, the person at fault is me, I can sometimes be the kind of person who will give up very easily. This time, I am not giving up. Second, some of the girls I had gone after were not at a close enough maturity level as me. Not to sound conceited or anything, but some people grow up faster than others, and I happen to have grown up a little faster. And my girlfriend now, she seems to be at a high enough maturity level for me and her to be compatible.
So now, besides girl problems, which have been occurring with me ever since I was old enough to become interested in girls, another reason I don't favor summer is how I always feel stagnant. Nothing is usually going on, there is nothing to look forward to, nothing to be anxious about. Maybe that's one of the things I liked about going to school, there is usually something to have to look forward to, something to sometimes get anxious about, like a test or a project or something. During the summer, all I do is work, come home, shower, sit around, and sometimes I do stuff with my friends. On the weekend, I usually just sit around the house unless there is something else to do.
Now, my summer job, it is very hard, but I am not going to complain about that. It is a maintenance job, and it is a real good learning experience for me. Just the past two summers, I have learned to frame walls, soldier pipes, fix toilets, fix floors, mix and spread concrete, and so many other things. So thanks to this job, I have become a bit of a handyman, which is great for when I get my own place and eventually get married.
So, when the summer eventually winds down, I will be going back to Bowling Green for my life of something I have become a little more used to, not to mention a pretty lady who will live right next door to me. When the summer is over, I will get back into my life of learning about programming and other things of interest to me.

Love is an algorithm

So im sure its difficult to not notice the plethora of social dating commercials that are airing lately. Its inevitable, no matter what you watch, chances are, you'll hear that song, i dont remember what its called, but there is a couple standing there in front of a white background talking about how much in love they are, and how it was all because of finding each other on eharmony. Then there is match.com, which seems like the eharmony rejects club, but i dont want to get into that.
What i really want to talk about is how it doesn't make sense to me that these site do match you based on a profile of sorts, but that matching has to be done somehow, and it sure isn't a human doing the matching, its a computer.
So this makes no sense to me, a computer programmer, I am fairly competent on how algorithms work. I'm no expert on relationships and love or whatnot, but i like to think that what i think i know is somewhat correct. The question i ask myself is "Is there a real calculable value of compatibility, and how can you measure that using some sort of algorithm?"
What i really think is that the people behind these sites are abusing the mass publics trust of the way that the internet can make you anonymous, thus making it easier to express yourself, yet, it also causes you to rely on it for a source of communication, and eventually lose valuable communication skills because of it. I am an obvious victim of this. Not being taken advantage of by social dating sites, but by allowing the internet to destroy my communication skills. I find it difficult to talk about my problems in a normal social setting without feeling anxious. I'm sure i am not the only one affected by this. This is a most unfortunate side effect of the information age.
So back to the social dating sites, I used to think that they were just stupid and basically made up my mind by thinking that they would just tell people that the only way to be happy is to be with that "someone special" Eventually, through a bit of an awakening, i noticed that happiness can come from meeting a certain "someone special" and it can unfortunately make you lose sense of judgement, but it still does give you a very nice euphoric feeling, something i haven't experienced in years. So i have changed my opinion to say that these sites are pointless because of the fact that my logical, computer driven mind cannot grasp the idea of making love into a simple algorithm that can be applied to just anyone.

They don't call it the sunshine state for nothing.

So i have been in florida for a little over a week now, and it has by far been one of the most interesting experiences i have had in the past couple of months. It all started normal, with a plane ride, those are fun, free pretzels (i would prefer peanuts tho, but people are allergic). When we get there, it was actually warm outside, i was able to walk around outside without wearing a coat, havent done that in a while. The first day we went to daytona beach, that sucked, it was bike week, and i hate the beach, and the people who inhabit it.
We went do Disney's Hollywood studios the next day from what i can remember. It was an interesting experience because i have a real strange love/hate relationship with disney. I hate them for fucking up many generations and giving them a skewed sense of love and also by subliminally taking away our innocence at such a young age. There was, however, the brighter side of the trip. It allowed me to escape, it allowed me to escape my worrysome life, and everything that was on my mind. This happened about the time we got in line for the Star Wars ride, hm, maybe the Star Wars had something to do with it, who knows.
There were some Indians games thrown in there, i only had to go to one, it was boring, stupid old people. It was weird tho, the way people act in the stands. They talk to the players, they dont yell, they talk, and they do so as if the players can hear them. Case in point, the particular game i went to, the indians were playing terribly and the guy behind me kept saying "Come on guys, lets get some hits" as if he were talking to a friend. I dont know, baseball isn't my thing, so maybe thats why i dont understand.
We went to downtown disney, i wanted to go to the Virgin records store to see if i could find the Fake Problem's album, but much to my anticipation, they didn't have it. I did buy Unicornography by The Falcon, still havent gotten a chance to listen to that yet, im listening to Circa Survive now, havent listened to them in a little while. But when we were at the Virgin store, they kept coming on the PA saying that if you bought the new Flogging Molly album that you will be able to meet the band and get it signed. Since my dad was there, i kinda nudged him into doing it. He got the wristband and kinda seemed like he wanted to give it to me, but i wouldn't let him, he'd done enough for me this week, i figured he deserved it. He seemed excited to meet them. Unfortunately their show at the House of Blues was sold out, it would have been awesome to see them live again.
Other than that, the rest of the week we went to random places to shop, some liquor stores, nothing too profound.
On friday my mother was glued to the weather channel because of the apparent winter storm that was destroying the north, especially Ohio. Our flight was on saturday, the day the snow was supposed to be the worst. And it was, our flight got cancelled.
We were right at the place where you check your bags and asked the guy what we could do about the canceled flight, and he said that the next available flight that could hold my family (5 members of us) wasn't leaving till TUESDAY, right then i had a strange feeling, and then he said that the flight wasn't until 6:30 PM, thats when i got pissed, i was going to miss two days of class and work, because of the snow. Yes it might be selfish, but i just wanted to get the hell out of there, i wanted things to be different, so that i would be able to get home, and get back to the rest of my life, but now, i cant, i am stuck, trapped in this state, for three more days.
So the rest of that day sucked, we went to margarittaville, walked around some shopping place, and i was kinda frustrated and was texting the entire time.
At the end of the day, i'd had enough, i was frustrated about a lot of things, i kinda lost it. We were turning around away from our hotel to get something to eat and i just snapped, i said something along the lines of "I hate this god damn car, its so uncomfortable, and these fucking drivers in this state are fucking morons, they can never decide which lane they want to be in and change their mind at the last second, and we have to deal with this for three more fucking days!" It wasn't pretty, but after that we all had a good laugh at my outburst and were pretty much slap happy the rest of the night.
We went to some liquor store, and the people there didn't even question my age, that made my happy, even though the only thing i consumed from that place was a monster, it pretty much was all because of my beard.
So now i am right here, right now i am calm, earlier i was stricken with anxiety over the fact that i cant go home, Katy helped me with that a bit, so did David Cross and Jason Bateman (Arrested Development).
So i have two more days, no idea what we are going to do, i think maybe some more indians games, the shuttle launch, i dont know, i dont care, i just want to go home.

This is probably going to be quick

So ive been in a sort of funk for the past few days, if anyone hasnt noticed, there is too much on my mind right now and i dont like it, almost as if i am overwhelmed. And i have been thinking, probably too much, but i have been thinking about how my life has become boring. I do the same thing week after week. I get up, go to class, go to work, come back to my room, eat, and possibly do stuff with my friends. It goes like that every day until the weekend, and during the weekend, i basically stay up too late, and do nothing of any particular productiveness. I WANT A BREAK.
I want to do something different. I want to do something reckless. I want to do something unpredictable. I dont know, i just want some sort of change, swift and drastic. But what? I have no idea, i'm not very creative. I just know i want something different.
I know this almost sounds like me complaining, and maybe i am, im far past caring, i just want to write it down. If anyone has any suggestions for making my life any more interesting, please leave me a comment, but please note that if you write something stupid, ignorant, or something that will go against my beliefs, rest assured that i will delete your comment.

Can someone help me make sense of this.

Ok, so after this whole social networking thing has come to a sort of culmination. There are still a lot of sites popping up, but its already apparent who the main contenders are in the market are. Facebook and Myspace. (I do understand that there are others such as YouTube, Last.fm, Digg, and so on, but my main concern right now is with the top two)
I had a myspace, and i have a facebook (evidently if you scroll down and look to the right). I have noticed something, something that has become more and more prevailant with the introduction of the facebook development platform (which i thought was a terrible idea from the begining). But what i have been noticing is how people want more and more ways to categorize their friends, and even worse, rank them. I dont really seem to understand this concept. I realize how we all have those friends who are either part of a group of close friends and those who are more or less casual acquaintances, but honestly, by showing it visually, its almost like saying that you cherish one's friendship over another's.
So now, as for the facebook development platform, this is what my opinion is. It allows shitty programmers to make shit applications for a website and make said site a whole lot less stable. I have come across it time and time again, applications that try to force themselves to be viral, and it never seems to work. And even worse, people get these applications, put them on their profile and then they just eat up valuable screen real estate (yes, that is a correct computer term). And the majority of them serve little to no purpose.
Now with that said, i will say that i do have some applications on my profile. But i doubt that many of them are the kind that are viral, pointless, or annoying. I have one for my digg.com account, another for last.fm, that stupid bumper sticker one that i will probably be removing, and then a few others. I do like to see my facebook profile as a way to bring together all of my other social networking adventures. I use it with digg, last.fm, and this blog. I am not stupid about what i post because i know that once you put information on the site, its not going anywhere.
So wow, two posts in two days, how bout that, its like a record for me, maybe i should say something that will piss people off and make them all make stupid comments that have nothing to do with what my point is.

I really can't think of a title right now.

How is it that we can live in a world where we are constantly suffering. Life is never easy, and yet, we get through it, day after day. But just how do we do it. Sometimes it feels like a miracle that we can get through one day where people are constantly pointing out your deficiencies or telling you that your way of life is wrong. There must be a way to escape it all. I remember during my one class in high school where we learned about the different ways people become sadists or masochists in order to escape their unfortunate existance. But sometimes it can be hard to see where people are using it. Or even worse, you can see people using it and it is hard to tell them because of how it could jeopardize a relationship. So, when faced with a problem, what do we do. Look for advice, a lot of people do that. Don't say anything and just go along, yet a lot of other people do that as well. If given advice, what are the chances that this advice will still be used, what are the chances that this advice will either help or hinder the specified situation. There is no way of telling. That is the unfortunate thing. And sometimes, when this happens, something very dear could be on the line.
I really dont know what im talking about, i have been thinking about this for a very long time. Its been up in my head everywhere i go and ive never had a chance to write it down. Maybe i read too deeply into things. Maybe i dont think enough about things. I really dont know, there is no way to tell. So now i should go to bed, as i am sure to have confused someone, because i am almost confusing myself.