Ladies??

"So hey, how them ladies treating you lately???"

Oh, a question i hear far too often, and every single time i have the same exact answer for it. So now, if i am in any sort of online conversation with someone and they ask me that, i can now direct them to this blog post.
So how are the ladies treating me lately?? Well, they haven't really been treating me very much at all. And, to tell you the truth, i really dont mind anymore. Does this mean that i am no longer interested in girls? No, it is far from that, hell, there even might be some special someone whom i have my eye one, but would you like to fucking know.
I have looked back on my (two) past relationships, and have had the chance to talk openly about them, and i have come to terms with the fact that they were learning experiences for me. I have not been in a relationship for almost two years now, and i have seen many ups and many downs in terms of relatinoships.
This is a prime example of how these "ups" go to "lows", it is a very interesting process, but i just cant seem to figure out why it happens time after time. First, i meet a girl somehow, i dont know, from somewhere, sometimes they magically appear, i find her to be interesting so i try to strike conversation with her somehow. This kind of conversation usually consists of pointless small talk and mindless flirting. Next, after sort of getting to know this girl, i try to show her a little bit about who i am, and mind you, if you dont know already, i am quite an interesting personality. It usually rarely makes it to this point because said girl will somehow be turned off by something i may say that might be misunderstood in translation, or something about who i am and how i act. This "Cycle of Infatuation" has been going on for over two years as i have tried to create meaning relationships with the lady-folk. I have always been met with disappointment.
So now im sure someone is saying "Oh woes is you who cant have any luck with the ladies." I am not one to ask for sympathy, and if you think i am, then you have greatly misunderstood me. I am writing this as a way for me to attempt to catalog the events in my life as well as try to understand why things happen to me the way that they do. The day that i do write a blog that is whiny and over-dramatic, i ask you to write me a comment calling my a hypocrite, please, for my sake.
So now that i have taken a look into my past, i shall wonder about the future. What types of things does it hold. What kinds of awkward circumstances will i find myself in. Will i really find true love, or is it just a myth. I really dont know. I feel that if i continue to live out my life the way that i am, that i will maybe, hopefully find someone who has the capacity to understand me, and to whom i will fill some sort of possible void in their life as well.
Ok, that was kind of strange, but i dont know, that is kind of how i think, there might be someone out there who might be somewhat similar to me, and also have the feminine parts downstairs, its a possibility. And a possibility at that, one i hope that will become a reality.