Why Being Really Lonely is Sometimes Super-Awesome

Yes, this title was inspired by an episode of scrubs.
When i first made this post, i figured i would just joke around and not make it much of anything (much like most of my blogs). But then it dawned on me, i am seeing, more and more, that the single life seems to be the way i am enjoying myself.
Now, i guess i should put this out first. I am constantly looking for companionship, and i very much do enjoy the female companionship that i do have right now, and given the chance and circumstance, i would take a serious relationship. But, i have also taken notice to how some people dont even look happy in such a serious relationship.
This is the main point to my argument, people may think they are happy, or even worse, fake being happy, just for some selfish reasons. And of all places to see this going on, being in college is a great place to just observe. And that is what i sometimes do, but seriously, not in one of those creepy ways. As i am walking through the halls of my dorm, i see many things. And aside from people talking on their phone, sitting on the stairs and blocking my way, i see people who are in relationships and who are in various stages of their relationship.
And next to people having sex (which is frankly annoying and kinda rude) the most frequent thing i see people who are in what seems to be an awkward "im happy but im miserable" sort of state. This usually consists of the couple sitting or standing really close to each other, talking in a soft, low, and quiet voice, and they usually dont look very happy.
Since i'm not creepy, i dont listen in on what they are talking about, but from what it looks like, it doesnt look very good.
Now dont get me wrong, this might be just one case of a few bad relationships that i happen to walk by as im walking through the halls, but it does tell me something about what i want from a relationship, and that is someone whom i can have fun with but also be able to have normal conversations with (and by normal conversation, i mean conversation with some ammount of content, not just random bullshit). But most of all, what i am looking for is a meaningful relationship with someone, the only problem with that is that i dont know how to do that.

Ladies??

"So hey, how them ladies treating you lately???"

Oh, a question i hear far too often, and every single time i have the same exact answer for it. So now, if i am in any sort of online conversation with someone and they ask me that, i can now direct them to this blog post.
So how are the ladies treating me lately?? Well, they haven't really been treating me very much at all. And, to tell you the truth, i really dont mind anymore. Does this mean that i am no longer interested in girls? No, it is far from that, hell, there even might be some special someone whom i have my eye one, but would you like to fucking know.
I have looked back on my (two) past relationships, and have had the chance to talk openly about them, and i have come to terms with the fact that they were learning experiences for me. I have not been in a relationship for almost two years now, and i have seen many ups and many downs in terms of relatinoships.
This is a prime example of how these "ups" go to "lows", it is a very interesting process, but i just cant seem to figure out why it happens time after time. First, i meet a girl somehow, i dont know, from somewhere, sometimes they magically appear, i find her to be interesting so i try to strike conversation with her somehow. This kind of conversation usually consists of pointless small talk and mindless flirting. Next, after sort of getting to know this girl, i try to show her a little bit about who i am, and mind you, if you dont know already, i am quite an interesting personality. It usually rarely makes it to this point because said girl will somehow be turned off by something i may say that might be misunderstood in translation, or something about who i am and how i act. This "Cycle of Infatuation" has been going on for over two years as i have tried to create meaning relationships with the lady-folk. I have always been met with disappointment.
So now im sure someone is saying "Oh woes is you who cant have any luck with the ladies." I am not one to ask for sympathy, and if you think i am, then you have greatly misunderstood me. I am writing this as a way for me to attempt to catalog the events in my life as well as try to understand why things happen to me the way that they do. The day that i do write a blog that is whiny and over-dramatic, i ask you to write me a comment calling my a hypocrite, please, for my sake.
So now that i have taken a look into my past, i shall wonder about the future. What types of things does it hold. What kinds of awkward circumstances will i find myself in. Will i really find true love, or is it just a myth. I really dont know. I feel that if i continue to live out my life the way that i am, that i will maybe, hopefully find someone who has the capacity to understand me, and to whom i will fill some sort of possible void in their life as well.
Ok, that was kind of strange, but i dont know, that is kind of how i think, there might be someone out there who might be somewhat similar to me, and also have the feminine parts downstairs, its a possibility. And a possibility at that, one i hope that will become a reality.